Saturday, June 28, 2008

Believing In Faith!!

I am writing to let all of my blog readers know that i have learned something very new about my son. First i need to let you guys know that my son was placed as a 51/50 Wednesday the 25th of June. He had gone down south to spend a couple of day with his aunt. During his stay, his aunt found drugs and on top of it, he had stoled money from her. As they were on the way home, my son decided to take a knife to his throat. Which really scared my sister!! Thats when she texed my cell phone and told me to have the cops waiting with me. So when my sister finally showed up, my son got into my car, thats when the cops came around the corner and they had my son step out of my car and they proceeded to put hand cuffs on him. Of course i started to cry. But i knew my sister was only trying to help my son. So off he went with tears and very afraid look on his face. Well now i go to the hospital the next day. they released him and advised me to seek more help for him. I decided to take him to a drug abuse recovery center the next day. The doctor had my son answer all kinds of questions, and i told him to be honest answering them. Well he did, only because i was in the room with him. After we were all done, the Dr. ask me why my son was taking anti-depression pills. Because he is very depressed and suicidal . Thats when he tells me that my son has the classic signs of Bi-Polar!!! And he said that if my son keeps on taking the anti-depression pills he will end up dead. Now i have always knew that the pills weren't working right, but had no idea it was making him more suicidal. (WHAT A WAKE UP CALL). So now thats why i say Believing In Faith really does work. It was just a matter of time to get the right help for my son. Now i have a lot of learning to do, and to be more understanding for my son. I think back when he was younger. He has always been like this, very unhappy. Or should i say Jeckal and Hide..... Well now i have shared this with all of you. I am looking forward to a kinder and loving son again. I know its not going to happen over night, but i should start seeing some changes in about three weeks. Thank you all for your prayers!!!! Maybe now i can start writing about other stuff. Yeah-Yippie!!!! God Bless Everyone, And thank you again.... Take Care Now!


Tracy said...

Stacy, with faith, and trust in the Lord, anything and all is possible. It has been a very long road for you both, but you both will make it through this, with a stronger relationship with Jesus.

Prayers are powerful, and we have a lot of people praying for this situation all over the world.

God has a plan for you both, and he is walking with you, and even carrying you at other times. He is a wonderful God. Nothing is impossible with him by your side. Keep the faith, the hope, and the trust firmly placed with him and you both will be fine. :) Love you sis, know that even if i am not there in person giving you added support, I am with you in spirit.

Hugssss sis.

“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)”

Hopefulsl said...

You got that right!
I know if it weren't for my believes in God, I would not be where i am right now. And yes, i too know you are here in spirit. Thank you for
being such a wonderful sister!!
Lots of Hugs and Hugs and Hugs to
Love ya sis!

Tamara said...

I am so sorry to hear your son is bipolar. But, also how wonderful to find out his problems are organic and not so much behavioral. Lots of people are bipolar and with the right treatment lead perfectly healthy, happy lives. Bless you for continuing to search for help for him so that you could find the right doc who understood your son's condition. I am sending you both lots of love and hope that you see changes very soon and life can begin looking a lot better for both of you.


Hopefulsl said...

You are so right when you said the problem is organic and not so much behavioral. I do feel better about this. And yes, i am looking forward for both of us to lead a much healthier life style.
Thank you for all of your prayers and support you have given us.
Hugs and Blessings sent your way!!!!

'Tart said...

Okay, you're gonna get it now! Because I have come right out in blogger land to admit that I am bipolar, (and sometimes feel that it is my life, but that's NOT entirely true!) I feel like I Can say a thing or two.:) I hope at the same time to not be a big bore about it. So I will say this:

You're son needs a supportive mom soooo much at this time.

You don't need to know all the answers. You just need to love your son and let him know it, by helping him take care of himself and giving that helping hand when he needs it. Compassion. And I already know that you have it. And I know that you already do.:)

I was a girl with bipolar, a different situation but interestingly similar. I too, was given the wrong drugs as a youth, anti-depressants, at age 15, by age 16 I actually had a psychotic break and the dang doctors had to give my parents some answer as to what was wrong with me. This was in 1988, and the only book that I could find that I could relate to was Patty Duke's 'A Brilliant Mind' I think that was her first one. (She is one of my hero's now. I love her.) (I could only read anything after of course, surviving being psychotic.) There are so many books out now, but I like one's of true experience. You can relate to the sameness and difference of the pain endured and the struggle and tragedy of never being diagnosed early enough.

That said, what a blessing that you know now! Your son is in lovely company too, you know he really can turn out just as beautiful as you always dreamed for him. He will be on different meds than the original 'bad ones', they may get moved around to find the right ones and he may be on meds for the rest of his life. That is not something to worry about right now as being stabilized is the most important thing.

I know you will do anything for your son and that you are a tough cookie, a strong willed person, as you say in your first line of your bio. Your son is lucky, he will need all of your strength. And your sister is right, there are so many people praying for you, me included. I hope I can be of some help to you, and many many hugs and God's blessing to you all.

Hopefulsl said...

Hey Tart!
I have been thinking about you, and glad that you have responded to this post.
I have already been doing my homework on bi polar disorders. And yes i have said to myself that when my son has an out burst, that i really need to be more understanding now. I already have a lot of love support for him. Which he already knows of my love. Thats why he stays with me more than he stays with his Dads. Hopefully his Dad will wake up and smell the coffee now!!!!
Anyway, thank you so much for your support and prayers. If i have any questions, i hope you don't mind if i ask you for help???
Hope you have a nice week.
Love Stacy

Anonymous said...

Oh honey, that sounds so scary. But there is light at the end of the tunnel now that you know what you are dealing with. Get educated and give your son lots of hugs (I know you will!). Take care.

Anonymous said...

Stacky,I'm sorry to hear that thing have gotton that bad,on the samr token I rejoyce that you son is getting the help he needs. God is great,that he was able to shine the light on the problem I pry that things will work out for you and your son.
Big time Hugs and God's blessing to your home from mine.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it.Thanks for the doobie brothers.

Hopefulsl said...

kittyconcerto! thank you for your comment. Its going to be a very long road ahead of us. And yes, my son will get lots of hugs.He will always know no matter what,that i still love him. Thanks again!

Mike!You are so welcome! I enjoy the Doobie Brothers as well. And yes, God does have a way of shinning the light. HUGS & BLESSINGS SENT BACK!!!

Wanda's Wings said...

I too am bi-polar getting the right meds is a great help. be patient and trust God. This is just the start of a long road. Your faith will carry you through the rough times.

Hopefulsl said...

Thank you Wanda for letting me know that you are bi-polar too.
I do know i have a very long road ahead of us. And i will put my trust in God. I know everything will be ok.
But i also know i will feel very lost at times, thats when i will need to put my faith in God.
Hugs and blessings to you.

jumpinginpuddles said...

does it help knowing that?

Hopefulsl said...

YES and NO. Yes because i know its just not him wanting to act out all the time. And no because now this is something that my son will have to learn to live with for the rest of his life. May effect jobs and marriage later on in life. We have a lot of learning to do.
Hugs & Blessings sent to you....

Mary said...

Hi Stacy I am so glad that you found a good doctor who understands your sons illness. Its been a long road but I think now things will get easier. You and your son have been through so much and with the right guidance can now see the light at the end of the tunnel. All my prayers are still with you and your son...take care..Mary

Hopefulsl said...

Thanks Mary!
I hope its going to get easier. I fill like a lot of this is just him???? I am just tired right now.
Untill i start to see a change, i think i would fill better about the diagnose.
Anyway, thank you again for your prayers and support.
Hugs and Blessings sent your way!!
Love Stacy