*:*:*:HAPPY-NEW-YEAR:*:*:*

Just popping in to say Happy New Year to all of you! Everything is going ok for me and i start my CNA class Jan.5th-YIPPEE..........Hope all of my blog buddies are doing good and i will try to get by to catch up with each and everyone of you! Best Wishes to All.............Love,Stacy

SILENT-NIGHT

As we approach closer to the day of the birth of Jesus, I would like to take this time to remind all of us the meaning of CHRISTMAS..........I know for some of us it has been a very tough year when it comes to MONEY! I found myself getting sad due to not being able to buy gifts like i used to in the pass. But then i needed to remind myself what Christmas was really all about..............So i have been doing more talking with people about this situation, And i have found that I'm not alone on this topic! It's so good to hear that other people are feeling the same way that i am. Yes-JESUS is the meaning of celebration for that very special day! We as human beings have gotten so carried away on how to celebrate it, we have spoiled ourselves with so many gifts and when all along it was to be celebrated for the birth of Jesus! He is who we should be thankful for, and i am hear to say to all of you that i am thankful for what i have and when that day comes Dec. 25th, i am going to be having a wonderful dinner with the ones that i love so very much...........And we will be thanking Jesus for all the impacts that he has had on each and everyone of us. (((( JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THIS SEASON )))) AMEN..............Love,Stacy

*:*:*:*: TIS THE SEASON :*:*:*:*

How is all my blog buddies doing? I'm so sorry that I have not posted as often as i would like to. There has been so many things going on with me lately that I have found myself caught up in all of my problems instead of trying to sit down and relax with all of you guys here on BLOGGER LAND!!!!!!Let me just say this, my hands are tied up with my son again. Lots & Lots of things going on with him that is still breaking my heart once again :( With that being said, I don't think I need to go into details cause it's really still about the same issues. Now I would like to wish all of you a very fulfilled and lots of laughter through the Holidays! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS.........TTYAS-(talk to you all soon is what that means). HUGS & BLESSINGS TO ALL-Love,Stacy

:*:*:*:*COUNT DOWN*:*:*:*:

Hey everybody! It's count down for me :) I have only 9 days to get myself prepared tell i start my schooling to become a CNA!!!!!!! I am so excited but at the same time nervous as well. I think that is only normal to feel that way...........I am just use to working one on one and here i go trying to learn more and to be able to work with many clients! This is going to be very good for me in the long run. I can always move up to a LVN even become a RN. But that is later,later later...........One thing at a time LOL...........So guys i just wanted to let you all know that things are going pretty good so far and as well with my family! I am having to get finger printed next week, NO SWEAT ON MY PART. So glad that i do not have a bad record. My son says to me, Oh Mom lucky you, aren't you scared??????? I just laughed at him and said what about? I don't have a bad record LIKE YOU KIDDO!!!!!!! We both started laughing and he just gave me a smile :) Probably not funny to you guys, but to tell you the truth my son has minor criminal record by hanging around the wrong crowd. Guilty By Association is what i always tell him! He will learn someday, I HOPE !!!!! Well i am off and running again. Hope all of you are doing well and i sure do miss talking to all of you as often as i would like too. SORRY busy,busy,busy for me right now. Who am i kidding! I haven't stopped being busy LOL, just a different kind of busy. CHEERS To All Of You!!!!! MANY-MANY ((((((HUGS)))))) SENT TO ALL OF YOU>>>>>>>>

I'M SO EXCITED........THANK YOU ALL :)

I can't believe that i got a answer so fast regarding the new job that i am trying to become a CNA...........((( I GOT IT!!!!! )))...... I start December 1st of 2008, I am so excited that my dream has finally came true. Everybody that knows me has told me that this is my calling. I do agree with them all.......I have been a care provider off and on for 8yrs. now! So now i have this wonderful opportunity to become a certified CNA-YIPPEE....... Thank you all so much for your PRAYERS!!!!! Take Care Now. ((((( HUGS ))))) TO ALL-CHEERS!

I NEED A REQUEST FROM ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!

First i would like to say how sorry i am that i have not had a lot of time to be on blog world............I am going to really try hard to do some catching up this week-end. Now the BIG QUESTION!!!! Can all of you please do a prayer for me???? I have a chance to become a certified CNA.............So i am asking all of you to pray that they will be giving me a phone call to come in for a interview, and if they like me they will finger print me and of course find that i am a good person.........Then they will put me through class starting this December 1st. WITH PAY-YIPPEE. Class goes for 6-weeks, then i will be on my own!!!!!!! I am so hoping for this job, some of you already know that i have done elderly care off and on for 8yrs. now................. Oh by the way, this job is going to put me in a place with the elderly. It's a living center for the elderly. So again, PLEASE-PLEASE PRAY REAL HARD FOR ME TO GET THIS OPPORTUNITY...............Now that i have managed to suck up and ask all of you to do this for me :) I feel so much better now. It's not easy to ask people to pray for me. I think you all can relate to what i am trying to say here. Anyhow, must be going now!!!!! Hope each and everyone of you are doing o.k? Talk to you all soon! BIG TIME (((( HUGS )))) SENT TO ALL OF YOU>>>>>>>

I'M STILL HERE.......HEE,HEE.....CHEERS!!!!!

I'M SO SORRY THAT IT HAS TAKEN ME SO LONG TO WRITE ANOTHER POST GUY'S. BUT MY SIDE OF THE WORLD HAS BEEN KEEPING ME SPINNING AROUND ALL THE TIME!!!! TODAY I HAVE DECIDED TO RELAX A LITTLE BIT :) SO FAR IT HAS BEEN A NICE DAY, AND I HOPE IT WILL CONTINUE ON FOR THE REST OF THE DAY? YOU ARE PROBABLY WONDERING WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH ME THAT'S BEEN KEEPING ME SPINNING THESE DAYS...... WELL AS YOU ALL KNOW MY SITUATION WITH MY SON, AND HOW I HAVE STARTED A NEW JOB ABOUT A MONTH & 1/2 AGO. WELL ABOUT THE SAME TIME I TOOK ON THIS JOB MY SON DECIDED TO RUNAWAY FROM HIS FATHERS PLACE AND NOW HAS BEEN WITH ME AGAIN ALL THIS TIME...........NOW I AM GOING CRAZY AGAIN, TRYING TO GET HIM BACK INTO SCHOOL AND HAVING TO DEAL WITH ALL THE DOCTORS AND HIS TEACHERS AT HIS LAST SCHOOL PLUS TRYING TO WORK..........WELL IN THE MEAN TIME I HAVE BROKEN OUT WITH HIVES ((((giggles)))) NOT REALLY FUNNY, BUT THANK GOD THEY ONLY APPEARED ON MY STOMACH AND BACK. IF THEY WOULD HAVE SHOWN UP ON MY FACE I THINK I WOULD HAVE HAD TOO FLUSH MYSELF DOWN THE TOILET. ((((giggles again))))........ANYWAY, WITH HAVING THE HIVES AND THEN FEELING LIKE I WAS GOING TO HAVE A NERVOUS BREAK DOWN THAT'S WHEN MY BOSS DECIDED TO HAVE ME ONLY WORKING 2-DAYS A WEEK RIGHT NOW. HE KNEW I WAS GOING CRAZY AND WE HAD A TALK ABOUT TO WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH ME.......MY BOSS KNEW BY ME WORKING 6:00AM TO 2:30PM EVERYDAY MONDAY THRU FRIDAY I WASN'T ABLE TO GET WHAT I NEEDED DONE FOR MY SON. SO HE HAS BEEN KIND ENOUGH TO WORK ME ONLY 2-DAYS FOR RIGHT NOW. BLESS HIS HEART!!!!!! FOR THE PAST TWO WEEKS I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON TO GETTING MY SON IN ORDER AGAIN. THE PROBLEM IS EVERYBODY ELSE OUT THERE THAT I AM HAVING TO DEAL WITH ARE DRAGGING THEIR FEET.......(((((i could scream right now)))))........BUT I KNOW THEY WOULDN'T HEAR ME ANYWAY. I'LL JUST SAVE MY VOICE FOR NOW! SO AS FOR MY SON, HE IS HAVING JUST A GRAND OLE TIME WHILE HE IS OUT OF SCHOOL. ((((yippee for him))))......ENOUGH ABOUT ALL OF THIS CRAZY STUFF, I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS TIME ALSO TO TELL ALL OF YOU THAT I REALLY MISS READING AND COMMENTING ON YOUR BLOGS. BUT PLEASE DONT THINK THAT DOESN'T MEAN ALL OF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN IN MY THOUGHTS. CAUSE REALLY, ALL OF YOU HAVE BEEN ON MY MIND. HOPE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ARE DOING O.K ????? ALL OF YOU TAKE CARE NOW AND I HOPE TO GET CAUGHT UP ON YOUR BLOGS SOON..........MISS & LOVE ALL OF YOU........STACY-BRAT :)

:*:*:* I'M BEING A COPY CAT *:*:*:

I was going to post something about my latest issues at my new job, But have decided to COPY somebody's blog.........So i will start by saying that this topic is going to be about our bloggers!!!!!! 1) Tart has posted a wonderful post about how she feels about her blog buddies :)......I really think it's great that she has pointed out on how she feels about some of us. So i would like to take this time to tell Tart how i feel about her. First she is such a sweet heart, and i myself love blogging with her and i too look forward for her comment's because she knows how to make me LOL and she always puts a smile on my face :) GIGGLES MY FRIEND!!!!! And Tart needs to know that she as well is in my thoughts and prayers too. Thanks Tart for being such a sweet kind hearted person that you are, and letting us all know how you feel about all of us crazy bloggers-Hee,Hee, i mean that in a good way! 2) I too agree with Tart about Mike! He has been there for all of us and when there is trouble going with a blogger friend he is the first one to make a prayer request....... Mike is full of care and love for all of us. For somebody that has seizures all the time has taken the time to post up a prayer request for people when i feel that all of us need to be praying harder for him.......He for sure has shown his kindness & caring to all of us :) Thanks Mike for being such a great blogger friend!!!!! 3) Tracy my wonderful twin of mind, well you all know how i feel about my sis! I can only say that as we have grown older, we have become very close to one another. And we both have gotten closer by being on blogger land. So i need to let you all know if it wasn't for my twin setting me up on blogger land, i would have never met any of you. How sad that would of been, because i really love talking to all of you. And each and everyone of you make a impact in my life......CHEERS........Big smile i have on my face right now just thinking about all of you! This is really cool to know that we all really do care about one another, WOW-what a feeling this is, thanks guys for being my friend on blogger land. Now i could keep writing about each and everyone that i love to blog with but i am afraid that all of you would get tired reading if this had to take a hour to read this post, so for those that i have not mentioned please do not take it to heart that i don't care about you. (((((CAUSE I REALLY DO LOVE BLOGGING WITH ALL OF YOU))))) Of course that would be-TAMARA,MARY,WANDA,CLUELESS, and i really could go on and on but i think you all get the idea.......Thanks to all of you for being my blogger friend. Hugs & Blessings Sent To All Of You>>>>>>>>>>>

:*:*:*:*GOING STRONG*:*:*:*:

Well here i am being able to relax and also able to let all of you know to what is going on with my new job! First i would like to say that YES i am very tired, the reason for this is due to having to do a lot of labor work......OMG.......I have to mop, stock the soda & beer walk-in, clean the bathroom and do windows plus wait on customers at the front counter. This is done daily, there is a lot more duties involved, but i am just giving you guys an idea to what is to be done by me daily when i am there....... Now i have just learned that i will be starting work at 6:00 am in the morning starting next Monday. I was only working 10:00 am to 2:00 pm daily. Now I will be opening the store at 6:00 am to 2:30 pm daily......OMG........Here i go again, thinking that 4 hrs. a day was killing me, now i will be doing 8 hrs. a day!!!!!! Don't get me wrong, i have done this kind of work all my life. But it has been a year since i have had to be this physical, so that is why i am BITCHING so much........GIGGLES.........Anyway, this means that my sister will be training me more on the computer register's so that i will be ready to be on my own this coming Monday. I was also told that once i am the main person up front that would mean that i would not be having to do so much labor work. YIPPEE, THANK GOD, Cause my poor hips and lower back are killing me!!! I just hope i will get the computers down o.k? I am just thankful that my boss is having my sister do the training with me :) I requested it cause she knows how i am and because of my hearing loss she will be able to help me focus on those people that are trying to get gas. The first day being up front my sister ask me if i could hear that? Of course i said hear what? She said the beeping sounds, i said OMG that is the sounds for the gas pumps huh????? I started to panic and said to her maybe i shouldn't be working up front cause of my hearing loss!!!! Then, because my sister knows me so well, she proceeds to calm me down and said that we will do what you are best at...Confused again, but she said because of your hearing loss what do you do best with it because of the problem? She pointed to her eyes, I said my eyes, of course that"s how i have gotten through life is to use my eyes more......That is how i understand to what people are saying to me. I guess you can say kinda like sign language but more like body language. So she told me to calm down and you will be o.k, you will be watching more then trying to hear the beep sounds. My sister has so much faith in me and i think that is why i have not walked off of this job yet. I have worked at a super market for years. I have done the same kind of work but i have never dealt with gas pumps or Lottery!!! This is very confusing to me, but my lovely sister tells me that i have been doing really good and that everybody is very please with me working there. Of course i said to her that you aren't just saying that because i am your sister are you? Hee,Hee......She said NO, and told me that i am picking things up really fast compared to some of the others that are still having problems with everything that have been at this job longer then me. That made me feel really good to hear that. And to top it off i am hearing that from my other co-workers as well :) CHEERS......So everybody, i will have to fill you in more when i start working more up front starting next Monday! Wish me luck and i hope that i don't mess up to much......GIGGLES......Hugs and Blessings to all of you!

BOY AM I TIRED!!!!

Hey everyone! Just wanted to stop in and say that i plan on being able to put up a post to what has been going on with my new job and a little bit of everything else too.......(THIS WEDNESDAY I HOPE?) That is my next day off, and i really would like to just and relax on the computer & maybe do a little of reading a book as well. Can't wait to share all the details with you all. Hope you all are doing good? I guess i will find out this Wednesday :) Talk to you guys soon. HUGS & BLESSINGS TO ALL..........LOVE,STACY!!!!!!

WISH ME LUCK :) :)

Just stopping in to let all of you know that i start a new job tomorrow. I am going to be pretty busy now so i may have a harder time being able to keep up with all of my blog buddies. But i sure am going to give it my best shot at it...........Right now i only will be working 4 hours a day so that should not be a problem at first. Once i get my complete training done then it will be full time work. Which i may have very screwy hours then, i will be working at a gas station with my oldest sister that has been there for 20 some years now........Boy do i give her credit, cause the owner can be a real pain in the butt sometimes........I have always said that i would not work for that man nor would he ever hire me due to my sister already working for him. He always said that he did not like family working together. But for some reason he has over looked that and i myself has decided to over look my issues about him too........So he is really in need of help right now and i really need to get out and make more money to keep up with this darn world of ours. I don't know who is crazier, the man that owns the business or me. We are going to find out very soon.....((GIGGLES))......We both are very much bull headed, so i told him that i already prayed to GOD about this situation. And you know something, i got a nice smile out of him and we both laugh about it. Cause he knows exactly what i was talking about :) I am looking forward to working with my sister though, and he has me being trained by her which is going to be lots of fun..........Like my sister said, i will be train right, that's for sure since she has been there for so long now. Which surprised me that he is having us work together.......HUMMMMM........Maybe God is really working on both of us!!!! Well guys wish me luck and i will keep you all posted to what is happening....... HUGS & HUGS TO ALL OF YOU, BLESSINGS AS WELL-CHEERS :)

*:*:*: HERE WE GO AGAIN :*:*:*

First i would like to tell all of you that my son has been doing pretty good. FOR THE MOST PART....... But as of yesterday, my son has chosen to leave school campus and then decided to hitch a ride all the way up to my house!!!! Well lets say where i live, cause i did not know where he was until i got a phone call from my brother in-law saying that someone had seen my son on the highway coming up towards us......... OMG, that little poop head! Now of course i needed to get a hold of his dad to let him know that he could be up here in my area. Here we go again i thought! A wild goose hunt and probably would have the cops involved. I instantly started to get this over whelming feeling. So i decided to get in my car and drive over to where i thought he could be hiding out.........The first place that i came to i had knocked on their door while my heart was pounding so fast, they answered and before i could say anything they said are you looking for your son? YES, they told me that they were the ones to give him a ride from our little town to there place. He is around here somewhere they say. Now i call my son on his cell phone to tell him that i know where he is. Of course he tells me that he is not here......FIRST I SAID WHY WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE NOT HERE. IF YOU WEREN'T HERE YOU WOULD BE SAYING MOM,((( I AM NOT UP THERE,))) BUT YOU SAID I AM NOT HERE..... I told him to stop lying and that the game is over. You have been caught!!!! So this went on for about an hour, finally the game comes to a stop. Now i see my son walking in a field, all sweaty and tired looking. He proceeds to get in my car looking like he has been crying. He then ask to call his dad to tell him that he is with me now.........Now we go back to my house until i was able to meet his step mother half way back to his home. Of course during all of this my son was telling me that i did not care about him anymore, and if i did care about him i would be begging his dad to let him move back in with me....... But i am this EVIL MOM he says!!!! Trying to keep myself from slapping him about 20 times that should of taken place but i just take in all the abuse from him and just tell him that someday you will understand and that i love you more than you know..........You can say all the ugly things you want to me, keep on stabbing my heart. But i know that you really don't mean the things that you are saying to me. Now its time for him to get into his step moms car. We now HUG each other, he looks in my eye with a tear saying he probably wont be able to see me for a couple of months now. I say that it wont be that long, you had a bad day and that your dad has been pretty fair with you. Just try to do better from here on. But you need some kind of consequence to be done. You will never learn if something dosen't happen. From my understanding, his dad has taken his cell phone away for right now. As far as for him to come up to my house, i do know that he has to do Saturday school this week-end because of what he did. ( SCHOOL DECECION) I will see if he will get to come up the following week-end. ITS ALL UP TO MY SON'S ACTIONS!!!! I will be praying hard for him :) Thanks to all my readers for taking the time to read my post's......Hugs & Blessings To All, Love-Stacy :)

I'M SO EXCITED, YIPPIE.......

I have neat news to share with all of you :) But before i do i need to thank all of you for praying for Mike, and i hope that he is having better days! Hang in there Mike! You will be in my thoughts :) O.K, is everybody ready to hear what i am so excited about???? Well lets see, i do not know if i have shared with all of you, but when my oldest boy went into the army and then several months later my son moved back to his dads......GUESS WHAT ???? That meant we had two empty bedrooms. So i have decided to make one of the bedrooms into and office.....YEAH...... So far we have re-painted and now have the computer stuff in. Now heres comes the good part.......I needed some really cool pictures!!!! So i went on line and found this WONDERFUL ARTIST. Her name is Tracy Jo :)......(((GIGGLES)))......That is right, my twin sister, i have ordered three of her paintings, and i just received them yesterday. OH MY GOSH !!!! THEY ARE MORE BEAUTIFUL IN PERSON.....My husband and I were very much in awhhhhh.. I cant wait to hang them up, but i have to wait for my wonderful husband to make the frames for them.....This week-end he will be doing that :) Let me share with all of you which ones i ordered. Then you can go over to Tracy's web site to see which ones i am talking about.....I have ordered (( Heavens Gateway )),(( Summer Nights ))&(( Ray Of Hope ))....... WOW and they are great paintings!!!! Really Cool Guys...... I will be ordering some more of her paintings as soon as i have more money. I can only do a little at a time, if i had it my way i would be getting them now. But i would be broke and plus probably upset my husband. Hee,Hee,Hee..... He is the main provider in this house hold so i better be good :) LOL.... So guys, PLEASE go over to Tracy's Art Gallery and enjoy what you see. I hope that each and everyone of you will have a great week-end........ Hugs & Blessings To All :)........

:*:*:*:* A BIG TIME PRAYER REQUEST *:*:*:

I am asking all of you to PRAY real hard for one of our blogger friends.....This would be for (( MIKE, RAMBLING THOUGHTS)). He has been having a lot of SEIZURES lately. I can only wonder to how tired he must be. And i do know how serious this can be. I do not want him to end up in the hospital....So PLEASE, can we all give it our best shot with lots of PRAYING!!!! We love you Mike, Just try to hang in there o.k........Hugssssss........

STOPPING IN FOR A SECOND!

Hey everybody, sorry that i have not been by everybody's blog lately. I have just been trying to catch up on a lot of things now that my son has moved back to his Dad's.... Plus i have been thinking about going back to work again. Maybe part time, not really ready for full time work yet. So i have been out and about looking for work as well, with me trying to get caught up around here too. Let's just say that i am trying to keep my mind more busy than just being on a computer or reading all the time!!!! So with that being said, i hope that you all understand? I will try to get by everybody's blog will soon. I will fill you all in later to what's been happening in our lives real soon......((( CHEERS ))).....Hugs & Blessings!!!

*:*:*:*: POSITIVE THINKING :*:*:*:*

As i woke up this morning, i started to think negative, then i told myself that i was not going to start my day off like this again!!!! What is the matter with me? I keep doing this every morning and then i find myself feeling like crap all day long............. So i have decided to start this day off different, and so far doing great!!! I have a very bad habit of giving good advice out and not taking my own advice. I am sure we all do it. But i really need to start listening to myself. I know how easy it is to fall into a trap like this. And i am giving it all i got to pull myself out! I need to remind myself that i have a lot of support and that GOD is listening to my sadness. I am not alone, and that i am a loving and caring person out there. All of you bloggers have shown me that, and i still have allowed this sadness to take over on me. (((BUT))) not anymore, i am going to pull myself together and move forward and try to stay strong!!! CHEERS i say......Saying the word forward reminded me of the movie Pay It Forward! Have you seen this movie? If not, you must go rent it. Great movie i may say. ((Giggles))......So now i am off and running, and of course with that POSITIVE ADDITUDE....Hee,Hee......I hope all of you as well will try and have more positive days!!!!!! HUGS TO ALL :)

%%%%TO MY SURPRISE%%%%

I am so shock!!! My son's dad is letting him come to my house this week-end. I am guessing it's because my son has so far been doing what he is supposed to do. Well for the most part anyway. So he will be coming to my house today, of course i am looking forward to seeing him. But let me tell you all, his dad has WARNED my son , if he chooses to screw this one up this means he will not be able to come back for at least a couple of months. My son's dad has told him that this will be his last and only chance, there will be no more chances if he decides to screw this one up. So it's all up to my son to do the right thing, LETS ALL PRAY, O.K........... I am happy about this because all i want is for everything to go back to being normal. If this all works out the way i hope it does, this means i will get my son every other week-end. When my son use to live with his dad before, this is how it use to be. He was a loving and respectable kid. Like any normal child they have problems but not like the problems we have been dealing with lately. And you all know why that was, due to him living with me and hanging out with all the wrong kids. I had no control of my son. Now that he has been back with his dad for a week now, i already see some changes in him. Not a 100% yet that will take time i know. But at least my son is actually attending school and not running away from his dads home. This is a big step for my son already!!!!! His dad has been keeping me posted all the time to my sons progress. Yes he has made some mistakes, but we expected some. And the good part is his dad has told me that our son has been telling him the truth when he gets into trouble. His dad can't believe it, cause believe me he does a back round check to everything my son is doing. And to his surprise, everything checks out clean........(((YIPPIE))).......I think my son is finally see the light!!!!! He has had a problem with lying for many years now. I have told my son that it will get you nowhere but into more trouble. Better telling the truth and deal with the consequence's now or getting caught lying and then having a worse punishment........I think he is finally seeing that. ( I HOPE ANYWAY ). Well guys, wish us luck this week-end and i do the same for all of you to have a very nice week-end. HUGS & BLESSINGS SENT TO ALL OF YOU>>>>>>>> Love,Stacy

((((((( SIGNING OFF !!!!!! )))))))

Hey Everybody! I have decided to take some time off from BLOGGER-LAND......

First i would like to thank each and every one of you for all of your support and prayers that you have given my family. GREATLY APPRECIATED, thats for sure. I have chosen to leave due to my son will be leaving me tomorrow 8-15-08 Friday. Therefore i know i will be in a slump for awhile. Even though i do know that this is going to be good for him, he will still be missed very much in my heart!!!!!

The only way i will get to see him is by going to his Dads place and spend time with him while his dad is watching. I know this sounds crazy, but we both know if i were to take my son to lunch or somewhere we know he will run and wont go back to his dads home. This is the best way we can handle this. So with that being sad, i will probably not go and visit my son for awhile until things calm down!!!! I do not want to stir things up right now, and i will have to not take his phone calls for awhile too. In the pass, my son has called with lots of tears and that breaks my heart even more when i hear him crying. He is real good on how to make me believe that his dad is out of control with him, and that his dad is beating him all the time.

Well i hate to say this, but i feel that my son will need some kind of discipline to get himstaighten out. He does not get it from me as you all know this already...... I will just pray that my son and his dad wont hurt each other pysically. (((THATS ALL I CAN DO)))...... Thats about all i have to say on this subject, so now i am going to say GOOD-BYE and each and every one of you will be in my thoughts while i am away!!!! THANK YOU ALL.... ((((Hugs)))) & ((((Blessings)))) Being Sent To All Of You>>>>>>>>>>

*:*:*:*:ONE WEEK LEFT:*:*:*:*

My son has one week left until he starts school. He starts on the 18th of August, which means he will be moving back to his Dads on the 15th of August..... I have been trying to have talks with him about this issue. Of course i get a lot of frustration and attitude from him. I keep telling him that he needs to knock off his attitude and just go with the flow of things. But he keeps telling me that he is not going to stop and that he is planning on running away again, and this time he is telling me that he is already having friends getting him set up for this plan of his......I did tell my son that if he chooses to run back here that he is not welcome, and that he would be stupid to come back to this area because we would be able to track him down. Plus i told him that it was between him and his Dad now. I have had enough of this pain from him, now it's his Dads turn to deal with this....He proceeds to tell me that he knows all of this already, so thats why he has friends helping him out and not to worry because he plans on running away to where he plans on being 6 hours away from both of us.... WOW i say, i guess this means you will be one of those missing children out there. Which also means we will have a Amber Alert out for you!!!!! I told him please lets be reasonable about this, but still he is addament about this. Now i told him all i can do is wait untill this happens, until then i will be praying for you to make the right choice......Until then, my son has a week from today Friday to do what ever he wants. Not by my choice, but i refuse to fight with him anymore.. As a matter of fact, while my husband has been away, he has been giving me more problems than i had exspected. But who am i kidding, should have known that this would happen. Of course why not, a lot easier to push me around when theres no other men in the house hold.......What a idiot i am!!!! Lets just put it this way, (((I AM COUNTING THE DAYS)))-(((YIPPIE)))...Now please dont think that i dont care about my son anymore because he truly is loved by me. I just cant subject myself to his behavor anymore. Time for his Dad to turn him around, I hope anyway. Well i think you guys understand to what i am having to deal with coming soon. Hopefully my son will make the right choice!! Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope all of you will have a wonderful week-end!!!! HUGS & BLESSINGS TO ALL OF YOU....... Love,Stacy

MAN-O-MAN!!! WHAT A WAKE UP CALL........

Last night my twin sister wrote about her illness. After i had got done reading it, it had made me feel real sad for her.... Of course i left her a comment and then all of a sudden i started to have this over whelming feeling come over me!! To tell you the truth, the over whelming feeling got greater & greater with me. Tears started to come to my eyes, my mine was going in all directions.... Now i have gone back to when we were teens!! I thought about how my twin and i were not that close back then, ((SAD TO SAY)).... Totally different now, she is everything to me. Anyway i thought i would share with all of you just a little history about Tracy & i when we were twins. Just about a week ago my twin had spoken with one of her friends about her and i being twins. Well her friend had asked my twin if i was the more out going one!!! ((SHOULD I SAY THE WILD ONE))!!!! Yes i was the WILD one.. Not saying that i was out of control, just saying that i had no problem being open minded....My twin will tell you that i was the popular one, the pretty one, had boys all around me, i had lots of friends. Thats what she would tell people, and she of course was the quiet one, afraid to let loose. She had one real close friend, as a matter of fact they are still friends to this day.... I think that is a great thing. I today do not have any of the same friends. But i do have wonderful friends as of today!!!! Anyway, where was i going with this? oh now i know, about my sisters illness, it had made me think about how wonderful of a sister she is to me, and how only if she knew when i was a teen how lonely i really was. Having all the popularity wasn't all that great. To really love somebody and appreciate a human being is to love the person from the inside out, not from the outside in!!!! All my life people judged me for my looks. It has made it very difficult for me to have women friends in my life because of this. I would go out with some friends to a bar and before i would know it, i would be in a fight with some girl because she thought i had been sleeping around with her man!!! I live in a very small town and have been here for 25yrs now. I have been accused of cheating with all the married men in this small town. I can honestly tell all of you and GOD above me that has not ever happened. The problem is the other men would go around and even tell my husband how lucky he is to have one of the prettiest women in town. They would be the ones to flirt with me, and i would have to tell them that they already have beautiful women of their own. Please leave me alone and go back to your wife. Of course by now this is my fault and not the men who are being out of line. There was one night that i went out with one of my truly good girlfriend who got to love me from the inside out. Well she talked me into going to our local bar, i did not want to because i just knew that there would be problems. Well we were only there for about 15 minutes, the fight was on!!!! I had about four girls screaming at me and throwing things and saying how much of a slut i am for sleeping with their husbands. Now i was screaming back at them saying that i have never been with any of their men!!! Before i knew it, each and every husbands of these women all stood up and made a circle around me. Now they were fighting with there wives. Finally it got quiet and this is what i heard.(( ONE OF THE HUSBANDS SAID HE IS SO TIRED OF ALL OF THESE MARRIED WOMEN ACCUSING STACY OF SLEEPING AROUND WITH MARRIED MEN! HE THEN LOOK AT HIS OWN WIFE AND SAID TO HER THAT HE HAS NEVER LAID A HAND ON ME AND HE IS TIRED OF HER PICKING ON ME. THEN HE SAID TO ALL OF THE OTHER WOMEN THAT IT WAS ALSO THE SAME WITH THEIR HUSBANDS. THEN ALL THE MEN MADE THEIR WIVES SIT DOWN AND TO LEAVE ME ALONE.)) Now my girlfriend had to speak her mind, this is what she said.((I'M ASHAME OF ALL OF YOU, I AM GOOD FRIENDS WITH EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU. DO YOU KNOW THAT STACY DID NOT WANT TO COME HERE TONIGHT, BECAUSE SHE WAS AFRAID OF THIS HAPPING TO HER. BUT I TALKED HER INTO THIS, WISH I WOULD HAVE LISTEN TO HER INSTEAD. I KNOW STACY IS A VERY BEAUTIFUL GIRL BUT I WISH ALL OF YOU WOULD GET TO KNOW HER FROM HER HEART, NOT HER LOOKS. SHE HAS A BEAUTIFUL HEART, AND I AM VERY PROUD TO BE APART OF IT.)) She also told all the men thank you for finally standing up and telling the truth to their wives. Of course we left.... That has been about 4 years ago. So now all of you know that this has gone on with me for most of my life. And by the way, since that night i have been left alone. I am being treated with more respect from everyone. The whole meaning behind this story is because i want to say that i feel that my sister is the lucky one and very beautiful may i say.,.. She was the one who kept it together, people loved her inside out, thats what made her so beautiful on the outside. She is beautiful no matter what!!!! And i do need to tell all of you that you are very lucky to have her be apart of blogger land. She has fought all of her life to except to who she is, and believe me she has had it all along, it just took her this long to find it.... So back to her illness, i hurt so much for her. And i do not know why something like this can happen to someone that is so loving and beautiful and would do anything for anybody??? I'll never understand.... Tracy has always felt that i had it all that is not true, she is the lucky one! And i am very proud to say that she is my TWIN!!!!!!

*:*:*:*:A TEST FOR ALL OF US:*:*:*:*

I thought i would ask each and everyone of you to try this out for a couple of days!!! Maybe even for a week.... O.K, here i go and spill out the beans to what i am about to ask all of you to do. I would like to see if we all can write about positive things for just a little while!!! I know you are thinking that i must be nuts, but i was feeling that most of us seem to have sad things going on in our lives right now.....So i thought maybe if we tried to write about happy things, it would make all of us feel better about ourselves!!!! And for one another.((CHEERS))..... For example, you can write about your dogs silliness, or cats, or just something that might even happen to you that was funny..Or just share something that another friend shared with you, and that you thought it was a cool thing what you have just heard..... Of course if something really bad happens, then i would want everyone to post it because we still need to keep the prayers going!!!!! ((THAT IS A MUST))....... In the mean time, do all of you think you would like to give this a try????? I just want you to keep in mind, that by doing this, this doesn't mean we are forgetting about all of our problems. Because they will always be in our thoughts at all times.... I just feel that all of us could use some good laughing and lots of smiles for our SOULS...... I would like to share something with you right now! We have three little dogs that are very spoiled and loved very much. Their names are ROLLIE POLLIE, ZIPPO & LILLI BELLE. Rollie 8yrs, Zippo 2yrs and Lilli is 8 months old..... When we go to bed every night we have to pick up Rollie to put him on the bed. And yes, they sleep with us every night!!! Anyway, Rollie is to fat to jump up onto the bed. Lilly is trying, but has not accomplished it yet. She will though. Now for Zippo, no problem for him to get on the bed. Here comes our routine now, Rollie lays about the middle of the bed, on top of the covers. Lilli goes back and forth from my pillow to my husbands pillow until she wears her self out.... Then she flops down where ever she wants to, that could be right on my head,((GIGGLES)). Of course that is not cool with me to have her butt right in my face!!! So then i have to push her somewhere else, like between our pillows. She likes to be close to our heads. Now Rollie is happy and Lilli is happy. 2 down 1 to go still. Now we have Zippo, just when i think that i might have a night without him sleeping right next to my belly under the covers, watch out. Here he comes from my husbands side of the bed staring at me right in my face.... I say, What Zippo, i thought you didn't want to sleep next to me?? Here comes the PAW!!! Pawing at my face and neck, that is to let me know that i am supposed to lift up the covers so he can get in and snuggle up by my belly.....At least my belly stays warm all night.(Giggles)... Anyway, i have to do the work for him...Why can't he be like all of the other dogs and use his nose to lift up the covers himself??? SPOILED I SAY....So every night this is what my husband and i go through. Fat Rollie content with being in the middle, Lilli back & forth by our heads. And Zippo with the PAW thing. We must really love our dogs to go through this routine every night!!! ((SMILES & CHEERS I SAY))....... Well i hope you all enjoyed my little story about our little lovable dogs? I could go on and on about our dogs, like going to the bathroom! Do you think we could ever go in private? NO, They will keep scratching at the door until i let them in.. THEN I HAVE SIX LITTLE EYES STARING AT ME OR TRYING TO PLAY WITH ME WHILE I AM TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF BUSINESS!!! (( This is silly i say, but i do love them...)) Time for me to go now, i hope i am not being to pushy with all of you!!!! HUG & BLESSINGS SENT TO ALL OF YOU>>>>>>>> Love,Stacy

((( A CHILDS CRY )))

TIME AFTER TIME, DIME AFTER DIME. MY SON HAS NO TIME, ALL HE WANTS IS MORE DIMES...... IF HE ONLY KNEW HE WOULD BE RUNNING OUT OF TIME...... CAUSE YOU CAN ONLY TAKE ADVANTAGED OF PEOPLE FOR SO LONG..... AND THATS WHEN THEY SAY SCOOT ALONG!!!! SOON THERE WILL BE NO ONE THERE FOR HIM..... THATS WHEN HE WILL REALIZE HE DID THIS TO HIM...... MAYBE THEN HE WILL SEE THE LIGHT, CAUSE I KNOW SOMEDAY HE MIGHT..... HOW LONG I DO NOT KNOW, BUT ONLY HE CAN ASK THAT THOUGH!!!! Well i decided to give it another try, and you know something, I had a ball doing it.. This is getting easier and easier....... Hope you guys enjoyed reading this one, maybe next time i will write something on my husband and i?? That would be a fun one.... *:*:*:HUGS & BLESSINGS TO ALL OF YOU:*:*:*

((( WONDERING THOUGHTS)))

As i sit my brain starts to think Thoughts twirl inside my head Until i can no longer think..... I decide to move around to Find myself lost in confusion I then wonder and start to Have illusions....... By now my heart is beating Faster, Oh dear here goes My thoughts, good thoughts I hope....... But find myself wanting to Drop, but i pull myself Together and tell myself Nope........ Thats when i know there Is (( HOPE ))......... Well i hope you guys have enjoyed this little poem.... Thought i would give it a try since i have enjoyed Reading so many poems from others!!!! HUGS AND BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL*.*.*.*.

Believing In Faith!!

I am writing to let all of my blog readers know that i have learned something very new about my son. First i need to let you guys know that my son was placed as a 51/50 Wednesday the 25th of June. He had gone down south to spend a couple of day with his aunt. During his stay, his aunt found drugs and on top of it, he had stoled money from her. As they were on the way home, my son decided to take a knife to his throat. Which really scared my sister!! Thats when she texed my cell phone and told me to have the cops waiting with me. So when my sister finally showed up, my son got into my car, thats when the cops came around the corner and they had my son step out of my car and they proceeded to put hand cuffs on him. Of course i started to cry. But i knew my sister was only trying to help my son. So off he went with tears and very afraid look on his face. Well now i go to the hospital the next day. they released him and advised me to seek more help for him. I decided to take him to a drug abuse recovery center the next day. The doctor had my son answer all kinds of questions, and i told him to be honest answering them. Well he did, only because i was in the room with him. After we were all done, the Dr. ask me why my son was taking anti-depression pills. Because he is very depressed and suicidal . Thats when he tells me that my son has the classic signs of Bi-Polar!!! And he said that if my son keeps on taking the anti-depression pills he will end up dead. Now i have always knew that the pills weren't working right, but had no idea it was making him more suicidal. (WHAT A WAKE UP CALL). So now thats why i say Believing In Faith really does work. It was just a matter of time to get the right help for my son. Now i have a lot of learning to do, and to be more understanding for my son. I think back when he was younger. He has always been like this, very unhappy. Or should i say Jeckal and Hide..... Well now i have shared this with all of you. I am looking forward to a kinder and loving son again. I know its not going to happen over night, but i should start seeing some changes in about three weeks. Thank you all for your prayers!!!! Maybe now i can start writing about other stuff. Yeah-Yippie!!!! God Bless Everyone, And thank you again.... Take Care Now!

Mom's Heart Goes Out For Her Son!!!!

I have been thinking about every thing that my son has been doing lately. Just when i thought that he was coming around, staying out of trouble, being more respectful towards me and everybody around him. BOOM!!!! He made a big bang again, caught him with drugs, lying and steeling money from us. So when i say my heart goes out for my son, its because i am at the point to where he will no longer be living with me. Thats not what i want, but he keeps continuing doing the same stuff. I have been seeking help for him, but its taking longer then i have hoped. For the last year, my son has been going doctors and doing home school plus seeing a psychiatry! He is taking anti-depression pills. I don't think that they are the right ones for him. I've told that to the doctor, but he just keeps increasing it. I'm very sad for my son. I'm afraid hes going to end up dead or go to jail. He is only 14 years old,but very tall 6 feet and acts like hes going on 20.... When i try to confront him about these issues, he threatens to burn our house down or hes going to kill himself or harm somebody else, etc. Then i attend to back down some because i really do feel he's going to do one or the other. Believe me, I've tried before and i got hurt. I am waiting for the school board to help me with putting my son in a boarding school. But its taking to long. So what am i suppose to do in the mean time? I have already called the cops on him, this last time they took him to the hospital and placed him as a 51/50. He lucked out and didn't have to go to a physic ward... So now he still continues to do his crap!!! I'm just so lost now. What can i do to make him understand how much i care about him? And all I'm trying to do is to keep him from making the wrong choices now. As he gets older its going to be harder for him or could end up dead or be a jail bird for the rest of his life. HE DOES NOT GET IT, yet anyway.... Well i think i have given you a very good idea to what i am having to deal with. thanks for reading this and if anybody has any good ideas, I would love to read about them. HUGS TO EVERYBODY!!!!! Stacy (hopefulsl)